I started off the year right. I had a plan and held to it for the first week. Then all hell broke loose and LA caught fire. The destruction has distracted me for the last few days. I couldn’t concentrate as the wind battered my bungalow and flipped the tarp in my backyard upside down and around. A fellow coworker isn’t doing much to help as I take on her shifts while she heals thyself. 4 days later I’m out of sync need some mental healing myself. My body is drained and just doing the minimum to maintain. I know what to do but a restorative sleep isn’t as easy as all that, not when one has a cat. But day by day, piece by piece, I’ll reset my clock and restart the plan.
First I just need to get through this day and not worry about what I can’t control. Worry is a wonder that has often stopped me dead, I let too much rest uneasy in my head.
I write this on the bus, there’s only 2 more stops. Oh good god the bus is changing shifts! Let it go, girl & breathe. Every thing will be ok.

ps I love LA.

new year, new prompts

Pacific Ocean wave crashing upon the shore in Ventura County, CA.

A new year, a new prompt. I still like the look of the words of the day but last year was a wreck which did and didn’t go my way.
A new job, at an old place. A new disease for my pet, I didn’t want to face. But my schedule needs changing, as does my life.
I have commitments now and still have no time. I have a plan for the new year, no resolutions here! Fingers crossed I follow through lest I waste another year.
Maybe I can rejuvenate this tired mind.
I’m a tabula rasa, a blank slate who’s flying blind. Easily distracted from the goals I hold often tripping over threads and falling into rabbit holes.
Just like now, I’ve barely punched in, and am already bitched at by a privileged prick about tips. Oh (insert eye roll) I’ve had enough but I’ve got to let it go. There is a future for me and more to write. I already have 2 on the back burner to start before tomorrow, if I don’t then I can’t regret when I lament about where my dreams went.

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