manticore, sporadic, nomenclature

Last night I dreamt of the manticore again. 
it sat above me on top of 
the mountain pass, waiting for me 
to reach the gate. I trodded and 
trudged up the hill dreading the moment 
when I would reach the apex. 
I did not want to be judged, but 
still I climbed and crawled over 
the boulders blocking the path. 
Will the obstacles I overcame and 
surpassed make him sympathize 
and feel my plight? I doubt it. 
I could hear his stomach growl, 
it was like thunder. 
I could sense his hunger. 
It just waited and watched. 
Why didn't it pounce 
and put me out of my misery 
just end this journey? 
Was it too invested by it's 
delight in my struggle? 
Damn you demon!  
You may best me  
and get in my way but 
I will win & get over this trouble 
triumphant as I beat you back into the rubble. 

So you're in the mood to play 
but your attentions are so sporadic, 
I'm not really here for the dramatics. 
Call me, maybe 
tomorrow or next week. Idk.
I'm too tired for today.

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What shall I do with you?
What shall I call you?
Do you have a preferred name?
Latrodectus hesperus is the
nomenclature you were bestowed by the experts, but you're definitely no Venus
I see you as a Bella, maybe a Carlotta or Betty. 
Betty the black widow 
in my bathroom window.

words of the day 10/19