On Pause

I’m from a time, where it was fine 
to politely decline 
those certain questions 
most personal in nature, 
inquiries that are basically none ya 
if you know what I mean 

Now, I have no trouble blurting 
sensitive facts outloud, 
mainly because I don’t feel that old.
Even though I often wonder 
Where Did All The Time Go!
I blurt it out because I like to believe
I’m in defiance of certain expections
of ladies in my position
who should be well past
that time of transition. 
I still have at least a year to go!
i just don’t know
anymore. 
Scattered is a constant state of mind
currently.
i just can’t find the time 
to do things I can’t remember.
Living by lists
I still don’t complete
in a fog
unable to finish thoughts…